This is Maria Shriver 's total recall of her marriage to ex-husband Arnold Schwarzenegger . The former First Lady of California got candid about her decades-long romance with the Terminator star, detailing how it went from love at first sight during a 1977 tennis tournament to heartbreak upon learning his affair with the family housekeeper Mildred Baena in 2011. "He smiled, laughed, looked you up and down," she wrote in a poem titled "At First Love" from her memoir I Am Maria .
"It happened before you knew / And then you did / It would take you from there to here / From love and freedom / To pain and prison." "It all happened at first sight / You fell / Fell hard / You would never ever really be able to reclaim your eyes / Or your heart," Maria continued. "Your eyes have never been the same nor will they ever be / Your heart open then broken.
" In another poem titled "Time Stood Still," the 69-year-old seemingly alluded to the moment Arnold, 77, confessed to fathering son Joseph Baena , 27, with Mildred. "I heard the words / But I had dissolved I wasn't there," wrote Maria, who shares kids Katherine Schwarzenegger Pratt , 35, Christina Schwarzenegger , 33, Patrick Schwarzenegger , 31, and Christopher Schwarzenegger , 27, with Arnold. "The moment changed everything / Nothing was ever the same again.
" After all, as Maria noted, "I had been with Arnold since I was twenty-one years old—my entire adult life." “As for me, the feelings I felt at the end of my marriage are hard to.